I love Fridays. I always have. Even now, that I am a stay-at-home mom and
every day is just as much work as the next.
But this last Friday was an extra special day to me. It was a crisp, sunny morning and it was the
morning of Marley’s Poetry Appreciation Day at her school where parents of all
the kids come to listen to their children read one original poem that they
wrote.
Marley is my oldest child with autism and she is in a
“system-level” classroom at school but since we started Brain Balance in the
Fall, she has been mainstreamed more and more into the regular education second
grade classroom. Although writing is one
of the few subjects she is not mainstreamed for, her mainstream teacher still
wanted to include her for poetry appreciation day. So the day before the reading, her special
education teacher sat down with Marley and helped her write her own original
poem. It was, of course, about her
favorite subject. Fairies. Her poem was based on her favorite fairy
book.
I was nervous and excited to see how Marley would handle all
the sensory input. Would she meltdown in
front of a crowd of parents if she made a mistake? She is after all, a perfectionist. Would she cry when she realized that today,
she would not follow the same structure as other days? Would she be okay with the increased noise
level in the classroom? Would the
crowded classroom bring on a meltdown?
Would she smile? Would she speak
up?
In the past, I wouldn’t dare let her attempt such a thing,
as I knew it would end in disaster. But
this day, I felt good. I felt
positive. She has made incredible
amounts of progress this year. She is
healthy now. No more GI pain. We fixed that. Her sensory regulation is much better due to
the Brain Balance program. So I was
excited for her. I wanted to see how she
would handle the situation. And indeed…it
turned out to be quite an emotional experience for me.
I watched her as she walked into the classroom…nothing as it
usually is. She knew today was poetry
day. She knew I was there to see
her. So she looked around the room until
she saw me. When she caught my eye, she
smiled and said, “Mom!” I smiled back and motioned for her to sit down
with the other kids who were sitting on the rug awaiting their turn to
speak. She waited patiently…every now
and again looking back to see if I was still watching. I was.
She was a bit wiggly and stimmy, but not too bad. She remained quiet and listened to each child
take their turn. When it was finally her
turn, she jumped up excitedly and took her place on the bench in front of the
class. And she read:
Ruby’s Story, by Marley
Rachel and Kirsty need her help
Six sisters
Amber, Sunny, Fern, Sky, Inky, Heather
In big trouble!
Had a ball and the frog orchestra played
Saw King Oberman and Queen Tatiana
Saw the rainbow
Red dress and ballet shoes
In the middle of reading, she lost her place and looked up
at the teacher for help. She said,
Marley you can start over. So she
did. Even louder and more confident the
second time. No tears. Just a big smile, then she finished and took
her seat on the floor again.
She had done it!! I
exhaled. I teared up. It was a moment to remember. This is what we have been working so hard
for. What most parents take for
granted….I never will. Afterwards, there
was coffee and tea for parents and bagels and bananas for the kids. I brought Marley her apple from home and she
sat quietly at her table and ate while I lavished her with compliments.
Then something wonderful happened. Kids in her class started coming up to me to
tell me that they thought she had done a great job. I smiled and said thank you. Then another child came up and said, “I like
sitting with Marley at lunch. I enjoy
talking to her.” While Marley sat there
and ate, kids were coming up to me, introducing themselves and telling me that
they like Marley. She was completely
oblivious to their comments and was too busy snacking to even notice. But they noticed her. They liked her. They complimented her. They even came over to sit with her with
their own snacks.
I felt that was my time to exit. She could sit with her friends. Oh my God....she has friends. Kids that understand that she is not like
them…but that it is okay. I can only
hope that the sweetness of these second graders stays in their hearts as they
grow older. My daughter is a great kid. She is funny and sweet…but she is clearly
different. May those kids keep their
compassion and understanding. May my
daughter continue to heal. And may I
continue to witness such beautiful things as my children grow.